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Choosing What You Did Not Choose

  Life comes with so many choices. I did not choose cancer. But for most of the four and a half years that followed diagnosis, Kathy and I have tried to choose thankfulness for the good days and gratitude for the good people in them. We’ve tried to have a posture of faith which focuses more on God’s goodness than on the ravages of cancer. We are learning to live and grapple with the difficult questions and doubts that never go away. Truth be told, however, I’ve had a tough time with that lately. Being well….staying well, is such hard work, physically, emotionally and spiritually. It is getting harder. Right now my will and energy to be a fighter lack zeal and even more so my ability to reflect on how blessed I know that I am. I often feel defeated. I am tired of the battle. There are lots of tears. My Oscar-the-Grouchmeter is red-lining.  Into that life-draining fog this week came our advent devotions.* The author Skye Jethani spoke about the choices that lay in front of the m...

Update: It Begins Again

Things have happened quickly these past two days ( #thankful ). I have just returned from starting chemo treatments again, this time in Red Deer ( #thankful ). There is some urgency in getting this going to keep the cancer from getting too strong. My chemo is supposed to be a triplet of drugs, but today I get only two of them as we still hope, pray and wait for funding for the third drug. We wait... Advent is a time of waiting. Waiting for something incredible and immeasurably more important than the funding of a drug. We want to live each day anticipating, remembering and celebrating Emmanuel. God is with us! Blessings to all of you!