We have been praying this week that God will "gentle" our hearts, and unclench our hands. Most of all we have prayed that God, in grace, will help us to trust. Trust the love he has for us.
A recent Positron Emission Tomography (PET) Scan was the subject of this week's doctor visit at the Central Alberta Cancer Centre. It revealed a number of high activity areas in my bone marrow that are likely due to active cancer cells. The scan also revealed that the cancer has done some damage to my left femur making for a higher risk of pathological fracture. It was an exam room, where there was a concerned doctor and a surprised patient. I had read the report, but the level of concern I saw in my doctor was something new.
For now, we will continue my current treatment, but the doctor has sent my file to a group of experts at the Cross Cancer Institute in Edmonton for review. He believes that a change in treatment protocol is likely warranted and hopes for a viable clinical trial.
And so, for a few days this week, we've had hearts that are anything but gentled, fists that are clenched and noisy heads filled with doubts and anxieties that are hard to let go. Gladly, graciously God has answered our prayers and we are slowly being gentled. Anxieties are being partially displaced by a resolve to #thankfully live these "normal" days of December, while waiting for further details. But really December has always been a time of waiting. Waiting in Peace. Waiting in Hope. Waiting in Joy. Waiting in Love. Waiting for the One who leaves no doubt about the love God has for us. May we all trust in that incarnate love as we wait for the light to break through the darkness.
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Please pray:
- that our hearts can be gentled by love this Advent season.
- that healing will take place.
- that the team of expert doctors will have a clear picture and plan for what is next.
- that we can keep the faith.
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