Life comes with so many choices. I did not choose cancer. But for most of the four and a half years that followed diagnosis, Kathy and I have tried to choose thankfulness for the good days and gratitude for the good people in them. We’ve tried to have a posture of faith which focuses more on God’s goodness than on the ravages of cancer. We are learning to live and grapple with the difficult questions and doubts that never go away. Truth be told, however, I’ve had a tough time with that lately. Being well….staying well, is such hard work, physically, emotionally and spiritually. It is getting harder. Right now my will and energy to be a fighter lack zeal and even more so my ability to reflect on how blessed I know that I am. I often feel defeated. I am tired of the battle. There are lots of tears. My Oscar-the-Grouchmeter is red-lining. Into that life-draining fog this week came our advent devotions.* The author Skye Jethani spoke about the choices that lay in front of the main chara
Brian’s diagnosis of Multiple Myeloma was in May 2018. The initial treatment was a stem cell transplant. After 30 months there was a relapse, followed by chemo, another relapse, new chemo and yet another relapse. In January 2024, the 4th treatment began. Brian currently gets weekly injections of an immunotherapy drug. Sometimes we keep the faith and sometimes we need family and friends around us to keep the faith for us. This blog is about enabling us all to be kept in the faith.